Madly in Love
I adore Engineer.
You know that by now right?
And I feel like I am a fairly low-maintenance wife; I don't need total control in all circumstances every time forevermore.
Even still, I can be a little
I have read the books: The Surrendered Wife, Love & Respect, The Bible, etc., and am aware of how I should behave or react in situations; BUT, that doesn't mean that do so properly all the time.
In fact, occasionally as words are cascading from my mouth, my brain is saying, "Stop with the verbal vomit! Just stop talking!"
I have explained this inner turmoil to Engineer and although he doesn't experience the same phenomenon, he genuinely tries to understand.
There are times when I actually interject whatever I am saying to him with a stern, "I realize that I am saying this and shouldn't but I can't stop myself."
>Shaking head< ...Tut....tut...tut...I still have so far to go.
Right now we have a couple of major decisions facing us which will heavily shape our lives for the foreseeable future.
Engineer and I are not completely in sync with how things should play out.
And even though I know that ultimately, we will go with whatever he thinks is right for our family, I'm just not ready to give in yet. I even laid my cards on the table and told Engineer that very thing. He kind of smirked. Cheeky monkey.
Instead of getting angry or flustered or frustrated, he looked at me and said, "You are a strong woman." Huh?
He went on to say how he appreciated my honesty and awareness and how I was actively trying to not let my feelings on this one issue negatively affect out lives or our marriage. That he saw that I recognized an opportunity for growth in my character and that I was truly attempting to come around on my own without blaming him for being unsettled.
How can I continue to be annoyed when he diffuses the situation with reason and a compliment?
Well played sir. Well played.
I so appreciate Engineer's patience with me.
In the end, he knows that I will follow his lead...even if it's with a bit of a pouty face at first.
1-4-3 EM and I'm sorry for not backing down yet...thank you for loving me anyway. ;)